To the one walking on a road that never ends,
One of the toughest things is to love oneself despite one having blemished skin and thin hair. Further, what makes it worse is not who gave these scars but one embracing them every single moment as recalling things that hurt or disturbs the peace of mind becomes a new hobby.
The sight of knowledge gets skewed to just a few things or a few moments because it is tough to let it go. How complex we humans are, right?
I thought humans can’t get over ice cream because of their sweet tooth; I mean the pleasure but was so surprised to know that we can’t get over different other flavors too like chilli & salt.
How strange it is that we see our identity in loopholes of our past and ignore the future completely. Keep trying to fix the flaws to fit in the ideal frame of being perfect and flawless. As if, a little stroke of your color outside the frame is a sin.
We all have something which happened against our expectations. For me, it was the reason behind unable to crack a competitive exam and not that I failed the exam. Failing was expected since I didn’t study but realizing that I didn’t utilize my time properly and work hard was unexpected. It was difficult for me to understand how I can be irresponsible and allowed others to influence my decisions. I was struggling to accept it since I have always loved the idea of perfectionism where things go smoothly like one plan.
During that phase, I realized that a little deviation makes one breathless and puts one in prison with a lock having no keys. With this, we welcome SURVIVAL mode. Sun is rising but our soul is deprived of it, trees are giving oxygen but we end up inhaling carbon dioxide, flowers are blooming but we keep plucking scars. How miserable we become on not finding things matters to them most in their hand.
We close the door and choose to sit in darkness waiting for someone or someday, to come and make us feel and see the fireflies. But this is not how it works, I learnt it a hard way. It will be you who has to clean the mess by smiling, accepting, and pushing to live and not just breathe.
It’s completely okay if things don’t go as planned if you weren’t at par as per your expectations if criticisms’ smirking at your abilities because nothing is permanent. Things change and so does people’s opinion. I learned nothing is worth at cost of one’s mental peace because if that gets damaged then one will become handicapped.
If I have to summarize a lesson to take away from this read then it is to accept more and expect less. It will keep you moving and that way you will fall in a place where you belong as doing mistakes is part of life and you can never be sure of getting rid of them.